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Here I go again
In my experience, there is always a price to pay for continuing to grow and unfold.
It is the price of releasing and letting go of that which no longer serves me. It is the price of learning to move forward whenever I come to yet another fork in the road.
Even when that fork gives rise to unease, restlessness, discomfort, and turbulence within me.
At each fork in the road I encounter, I get to choose. I get to choose to hang on to the old or surrender to the new.
Those old, small and narrow opinions, points of view, perceptions, conversations, and beliefs. They need to be let go of in order for me to keep growing.
Yet another fork in the road
I am at such a fork right now. Or rather I was a few weeks ago. I realized that the path that I had been walking was a dead end.
And so through becoming still and making myself receptive, I was guided to a new direction. Which I chose.
The choice was not hard, even though great uncertainty lies ahead. Not real uncertainty, as God is always for me and all is working for my good.
But uncertainty and unclarity at the surface level.
The old path I was walking was familiar. I knew what it meant, and there was a level of stability there. But I had outgrown the space it held.
I was being held captive by the familiarity. So I had to make the choice. And once I was guided to it, it was easy.
And so I left the fork in the road behind me, venturing off into a new direction in life.
The ego is going down, however not without a fight.
The days following my making the choice to leave the old and allow for the new to emerge went by smoothly. I was experiencing a great level of joy, peace and Love.
But then, a few days ago I was hit. Hit by unease, restlessness, and a level of fear and worry.
I find myself being more irritable and less patient than before. Where there used to be peace and harmony, there is now agitation.
I feel like an anthill inside. Like a million ants are creeping about within me.
I am glad I have been here before. I give thanks that I have experienced this before that I know what it is that is going on.
This is the ego dying. It is not going down without a fight, but it is dying nonetheless. Or maybe not dying but at least loosing its power over me.
Now it desperately seeks to get me to change my mind.
The ego wants me to go back to that fork in the road and turn back to the path I was headed. It wants me to back to being small and narrow, locked up inside my limited perceptions.
That is what all these unease is all about. I have been through this before, I recognize it and so I actually find it quite easy to be with.
Thank you God for teaching me to embrace and allow that which is
In the midst of all the turbulence that I experience, there is peace and tranquility. The knowing that this that I am now experiencing is good in progress makes it so much easier to just be with it.
I know, to a degree that actually amazes myself, that God is forever for me and that all is working for my good.
Truly, I know it to the point where this turbulence does not bother me. I experience the unease, I experience the fear and worry – but it doesn’t get to me.
And so, I can allow it to be where and what it is, while keep moving ahead.
I am so grateful for this, for who I have become and for where I am. For me, this is huge.
If I look back to who I used to be and how I used to operate – this peace that I am experiencing in this situation would not have been before.
It takes courage to choose at each fork in the road
Having stood at the fork in the road, having made the choice to allow for something new to emerge I now find myself steadily moving forward.
Even though parts within me is seeking to drag me back to where I was a few weeks ago.
And so I am grateful for the courage that has been given to me. I know that awakening requires courage. Courage to continuously venturing into the unknown.
Beyond my present paradigm and beyond my current comfort zone.
This is what I need to say yes to, this is the price I need to be willing to pay – if I am to keep growing.
Life truly is a magical adventure if only I let it.
And so I just quietly remind myself that whenever I choose to trust Life more than fear, God more than the ego – I will always be provided for.
All of my needs are met if only I give myself permission to see it and more importantly to feel it.
I have my intention, to be an increasingly expanding and forever more powerful conduit for God’s Love & Light to come through. That is my what, that is my heart’s desire.
There is really nothing else I need to be doing. I know that God handles all the details as long as I know and can articulate my heart’s desire.
God handles the rest.
Blessings of Love & Light